1) I need to be more committed in the things I do.

I don't know why I don't feel as committed as before. I missed 2 consecutive Saturday practices. Last time I used to take practices very seriously, making sure I attend every single one of them punctually. Especially now that I have been chosen as the next Student Conductor, I must devote more time to choir. Perhaps it is because that I have been chosen as one, I start to take practices less seriously? I know that if I continue doing this, the time will come when I will not be respected by the choir any more. This will definitely have an adverse effect on the choir.

I am also starting to skip lectures. The urge to gain more knowledge just isn't there like before. Every time I go to a lecture theatre, I will start to either fall asleep, day-dream or SMS friends (LT1 and LT5 have relatively good receptions ;) ). I kept telling myself that I will study at home but that isn't the case. I recall what my sister told me yesterday: her university fees are very expensive, and she calculated that on average, each lecture costs $100+, so it serves as a motivation for her to pay attention. Hopefully this can somehow motivate me as well. JAE is just over, so it's time to buck up and "not let your (my) work snowball".

2) I have to become less arrogant.

Coming to VJC has changed me totally. I feel that I am not my usual self when I came here. Maybe it is the presence of girls. Maybe I am trying to put on a false front. I don't know how to change myself. Should I just be my normal self? How am I able to do that?

There's just... something very wrong with me since the start of this year.

I received an SMS at 6.45am this morning while I was still sleeping. Gosh I must be late for school. But no, today is the release of JAE posting results and MOE just sent me an SMS to inform me of my new school. I remember that we have to pay $10 for that SMS. And if we were to change the application form after we submit, we have to pay $17 for that SMS. And if you don't enter your phone number, you still have to pay that 10 bucks anyway. MOE is really earning a lot.

Yeah so I got into EePohLam Junior College (EJC). For those who dunno what's EJC, it's a fictional JC set up by Mr Ee Poh Lam, my English teacher last year. He set it up while teaching us how to write formal letters.

Alright no, I am back into VJC.

I woke up eventually at 11am, only to realise that I seem to be missing out on a lot of things. Some choir people getting their appeals rejected, 4A people went out to play badminton, Lydia Sum passed away. I was in a very confused state of mind.

Slacked at home today with 7 other guys. Woohoo 4A still rocks like never before. And the 11-toe guy was in my house.

Let's just assume that his other foot has 5 toes.

Tomorrow is Orientation 2. Like I am so excited to be oriented again. But they promised us that it is going to be very fun. I feel like going to school and do work instead. I don't want to lead cheers. I don't wanna dance.

And my OGL accidentally mistook me for a second-intaker.

I heard that the VJC cut-off point is now 4. That is approaching RJC's standard, isn't it? Plus there are some 4 pointers (after bonus) who cannot make it to VJC, so I suppose that it is partial 4. Is it because 'O' levels are too easy until everyone is scoring too well, or is it because VJC's standard is rising?

Ah forget it. I'm too tired to think about it now.

Laughing Baby

Did you do that when you were young? Hahahahaha.

Blah, JC life is so hectic. Lessons end at 3+ pm on some days and 5.30pm on Fridays. Choir practices end at 7+ pm on Mondays, Wednesdays and now Thursdays. If I were to continue Bridge trainings next term, then I can only go home at 6pm on Thursdays. I have to prioritize on Saturdays. Maths Olympiad training from 9.30am to 12.30pm at NUS and choir practice from 9am to 3+ pm. I could have easily rejected the trainings and go for practices instead, but that was what I did since 3 years ago and I don't want to let this opportunity slip past.

Tutorials are so fun. Every day we sit in and go through questions which nobody does at home. "Cannot let your work snowball ah," says Mrs Ang (Maths teacher) every time she catches me with a blank piece of paper in front of me. The lessons now are so different from secondary school ones. Everything is done so systematically. Lectures are lectures. Tutorials are tutorials. In secondary school, the teachers can lecture us depending on the pace of the class. Then they will tell us to do which questions as homework. In JC, you have to do the tutorial questions yourself. There is no one to tell you to do them, it's up to your own initiative.

Next Monday is the last day of lessons before we get a long break. I'm looking forward to that. But meanwhile, I think I should go mug as much as possible. I don't understand anything about Bonding for Chemistry. I almost failed Physical Geography quiz. I dunno how to apply the trigonometry formulae. The problem is, I can't mug as well as Rajesh. Every morning you hear, "Can I borrow your _______ notes?" (fill in _______ with any topic). Early morning isn't a good time to mug because you get distracted easily. Breaks are out too, because food is more important and you can't mug in 10 minutes. Mugging at home is a big no-no, because one long day of work, you know you need some time to slack, to play, to flirt with girls, to sleep. Unless you flirt with girls or sleep during lectures, but that means you gotta do more work at home, meaning lesser time to flirt and sleep. Then the cycle continues.

Being sick isn't a very good thing. Because you lie on the bed for hours, you start getting philosophical. You start wondering about things you have never wondered about. You start to wonder whether having 6 toes on one foot is cool. You start to wonder if people talk about you behind your back. You start to wonder when your fever will subside. You start to wonder why you are blogging this post. You start to wonder where your blog post will end.

What did you receive from your valentine(s) on v'day?


And I feel so bad because I didn't give them anything. Ah well, let's wait until next year :)

"Mine, you are mine, never another valentine"

If you really have nothing to do...

Potter Puppet Pals in "The Mysterious Ticking Noise"

It has been pretty long since I posted in "jokes" btw.

So cool!

I just saw someone who has 11 toes on his feet! And the thing is that I have known him for pretty long already, and I just noticed it.

Or maybe I was just dreaming... I dunno, I was feeling very sleepy.

Today was bad.

Even though I learnt De Circuitu Aeterno and got all the difficult parts for that song already.

Somehow the feeling just now was different from the feeling I had while taking VSchoir practices. In VSchoir I was able to gain the respect of my fellow choir members. In VSchoir I was able to enjoy practices with them. I thought since VJchoir is better than VSchoir technically, it may be easier conducting them. But I was wrong. Every note the choir sang made me feel worse and worse until I almost wanted to give up listening to the songs halfway.

VJchoir is top 10 in the world, and the latest ranking is 4th. Before I sang my first note with the choir, I thought that they must have a very strong foundation to start off with. But that is not what I experience after singing for nearly a month. As I conducted just now I understood that it is actually very difficult to take VJchoir practices than it seems.

Sigh, never mind.