Stupid stupid stupid! I am not living life like how I should. I don't get appreciated. I feel like I am better off with nothing around me. No burden whatsoever.
You know, whatever I do for the choir is wrong. I must set aside time for small groups practice during camp, but I can't because people complain of too little time to practise; I cannot give them more time because we still need to do other songs. I cannot put Sop 1s and Sop 2s together for Fyer Fyer practice because they will get confused with each other's notes, yet I cannot split them apart because they 'cannot hear each other'. It's like Catch-22. You are given 2 choices A and B, but you cannot do A. Neither can you do B. So whatever you do, you're wrong. People do not care whether you're choosing the Lesser of Two Evils, as long as it is Evil, it is wrong. And you get blamed for it.
Why am I working so hard for the choir? What rewards am I going to get? People choose to continue working even if they have no passion for their jobs because of money. I don't get money for working so hard for the choir. I don't get anything at all. What I get are complaints and arguments. So what's the point?
Worst of all, I get no support from the committee. Or should I say, negative support (I can't find a word to replace that). People dislike me for the way I do things. But what I have done have worked for the choir, right? It's not as if what I've done are all wrong. Why is it that you expect me to accommodate to you all when you all did not put in as much effort as I do? You all don't need to put in more effort than me - I'm the SC anyway and it's right for me to put in the most effort. Why don't you all put yourselves in my shoes instead? What do I need most? Understanding. Cooperation. Effort. Why don't you all do the work all by yourselves? Do you really think it's so easy?
I feel that there's really no point for me to be so hardworking for the choir. But I have to. I have no passion for the choir and I am just doing all these because of responsibilities. I don't get rewarded nor appreciated, nor do I get any help from the people around. It's just plain stupid.
You know, whatever I do for the choir is wrong. I must set aside time for small groups practice during camp, but I can't because people complain of too little time to practise; I cannot give them more time because we still need to do other songs. I cannot put Sop 1s and Sop 2s together for Fyer Fyer practice because they will get confused with each other's notes, yet I cannot split them apart because they 'cannot hear each other'. It's like Catch-22. You are given 2 choices A and B, but you cannot do A. Neither can you do B. So whatever you do, you're wrong. People do not care whether you're choosing the Lesser of Two Evils, as long as it is Evil, it is wrong. And you get blamed for it.
Why am I working so hard for the choir? What rewards am I going to get? People choose to continue working even if they have no passion for their jobs because of money. I don't get money for working so hard for the choir. I don't get anything at all. What I get are complaints and arguments. So what's the point?
Worst of all, I get no support from the committee. Or should I say, negative support (I can't find a word to replace that). People dislike me for the way I do things. But what I have done have worked for the choir, right? It's not as if what I've done are all wrong. Why is it that you expect me to accommodate to you all when you all did not put in as much effort as I do? You all don't need to put in more effort than me - I'm the SC anyway and it's right for me to put in the most effort. Why don't you all put yourselves in my shoes instead? What do I need most? Understanding. Cooperation. Effort. Why don't you all do the work all by yourselves? Do you really think it's so easy?
I feel that there's really no point for me to be so hardworking for the choir. But I have to. I have no passion for the choir and I am just doing all these because of responsibilities. I don't get rewarded nor appreciated, nor do I get any help from the people around. It's just plain stupid.
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