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Went for secondary school choirs SYF today. Listened to one whole day of White Horses. Some horses galloped too fast. Some horses died. But most horses were quite nice and I think that song is very nice. I can almost memorise the song already after hearing it so many times. Fell asleep during the evening performances (last few choirs) because I heard enough of White Horses already. I wonder how the judges can tahan 4 days worth of horses.

Anyway, my main purpose of going Victoria Concert Hall to listen to the choirs is to hear VS. They were quite good on stage. There was the determination to win. Mundi Renovatio was very steady and the essence of the song could be brought out. Quite astonished because I thought they would rush that song. Although there were quite a few mistakes here and there (tsk tsk never practise hard enough), I think they still deserve the Gold with Honours that they got. Right after they performed, I knew it was clearly a GWH standard, though it was not a high one. VSchoir, thanks for bringing back the Gold with Honours that we were supposed to get all along. I think it was a great showing at VCH today. Congratulations and all the best for your Penang trip in July!

Hmm ok I'm quite sick now. I think I don't have enough rest. I think I'm going off to sleep already.

Stupid stupid stupid! I am not living life like how I should. I don't get appreciated. I feel like I am better off with nothing around me. No burden whatsoever.

You know, whatever I do for the choir is wrong. I must set aside time for small groups practice during camp, but I can't because people complain of too little time to practise; I cannot give them more time because we still need to do other songs. I cannot put Sop 1s and Sop 2s together for Fyer Fyer practice because they will get confused with each other's notes, yet I cannot split them apart because they 'cannot hear each other'. It's like Catch-22. You are given 2 choices A and B, but you cannot do A. Neither can you do B. So whatever you do, you're wrong. People do not care whether you're choosing the Lesser of Two Evils, as long as it is Evil, it is wrong. And you get blamed for it.

Why am I working so hard for the choir? What rewards am I going to get? People choose to continue working even if they have no passion for their jobs because of money. I don't get money for working so hard for the choir. I don't get anything at all. What I get are complaints and arguments. So what's the point?

Worst of all, I get no support from the committee. Or should I say, negative support (I can't find a word to replace that). People dislike me for the way I do things. But what I have done have worked for the choir, right? It's not as if what I've done are all wrong. Why is it that you expect me to accommodate to you all when you all did not put in as much effort as I do? You all don't need to put in more effort than me - I'm the SC anyway and it's right for me to put in the most effort. Why don't you all put yourselves in my shoes instead? What do I need most? Understanding. Cooperation. Effort. Why don't you all do the work all by yourselves? Do you really think it's so easy?

I feel that there's really no point for me to be so hardworking for the choir. But I have to. I have no passion for the choir and I am just doing all these because of responsibilities. I don't get rewarded nor appreciated, nor do I get any help from the people around. It's just plain stupid.

Got back my Common Test 1 results already. Improved 1 subject only. The rest all deproved. The worst is Physics which I dropped from A to C. Didn't really expect it too. I was quite shocked when Mrs Tan suddenly told me, "You missed your distinction, you know?" But oh well, it's all over and what I can do now is to work harder for CT2 and beyond and make sure that I don't make the same mistakes over again.

2 months ago during CNY celebrations, there were 2 periods of lesson in the morning (I think it was the Friday before CNY). I was supposed to go for Chemistry Lecture but I went for Economics with Pock Thong, May and Rhoda (aka pon my lecture). The lecturer was going through GDP (Gross Domestic Product) or something like that. Surprisingly, a few days ago during Geography Lecture, Mr Josef talked a little about GDP too! No wonder I could understand that lecture even though I don't take Economics.

Went for Contract Bridge competition today at SCBA. Lost 42-92 in IMPs. Overall it's 3-25 in Victory Points. I think our first half was considered very good already because we only lost 30-33 in IMPs. That's like 3 IMPs, and they came 6 minutes late so there was supposedly a 3 IMP penalty so it's actually a tie! Haha. Ok lah I don't think the 3 IMPs were included. Even if they were, I don't think it makes a difference in terms of VPs.

Ok I think I have nothing else to blog about already. My life is hectic yet boring. I haven't finished my tutorials yet.